I Love My Dad by Sun Kil Moon

這兩個星期都在聽Sun Kil Moon的Benji(2014)。很久沒有如此確切地感受到民謠的力量了，那種質樸地說故事的方式，或是那些哀痛又溫柔的訴求。第一次聽的時候，讓我感覺特別強烈的是Pray for Newton 和Richard Ramirez Died Today of Natural Causes，聽完之後彷彿既迷惑又全部明白了。

不過今天早上我賴床的時候，用手機在枕邊撥放的是這首I Love My Dad，因為中午很難得地要跟我爸吃飯。我喜歡Mark Kozelek並不大談父愛之神聖，悠悠唸唱每件記憶中意義重大的小事。結尾也很療癒：

I ain't trying to say my dad was some kind of a perfect saint. 
When something set him off, 
I hit the floor quicker than what Mike Tyson did to Ricky Sveen. 
I hit the floor so fast, but that was so long ago and we both moved past.
My life is pretty good, I owe it to him. 
My dad did the best he could.

 這種不可理喻，就是親情。